Perfume Factory

Author: Unknown

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn’t know and may or may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you’d just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

Source: http://www.cds.caltech.edu/~shane/text/quarterlifecrisis.html

More on wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quarter-life_crisis

Yes. that was what 2008 for me. More bitter.. Little sweet. 2008 was more depressing to me compared to 2007. The year end was even more worse. Well, some lessons are always learned in a hard way. Lets not discuss about the bad things that happened to me. There were few good things too..

• I went to Bangkok this year and stayed there a whole fortnight.
• H1b Visa got initiated and petition got approved too. However, stamping postponed till now due to some .. you know ^^^^ reasons.
• Made a lot of good real nice friends in InfyBLOGS. This is one of the best  thing that happened to me in my Infy career.
• Became hyper active on twitter. It is addictive. It is crapville. It is knowledge sharing platform. There are many definitions for it. If you haven’t tried it yet, try it once. But caution.. either you get it or you will not.
• Professionally improved a lot according to my team expectations but not as much as I had wished. I yet to gain technical expertise on many areas that i daily work.
• Music became part of my life. I got introduced to diversed music by fellow friends. I bought Sennheiser PX 100. Music controls me now. It has power to change my emotions. It heels me. I yet to listen/discover hidden gems of different part of world music.
• Joined gym but gave up after a week. I have become more fat now compared to last year. Fitness was in 2008 year resolution and it will be continued this year also.
• Had 3 days Hyderabad Trip. Hyderabad is one of nice tourist attraction. I totally loved Golconda Fort.
• Started swimming and learning guitar but had to stop temporarily due to shortage of time and bangkok trip. will start both again.. thats for sure. One thing i learnt after joining guitar classes is ‘guitar is not the easiet instrument to play’. If you have that in mind, give it a try.
• I had Lasik operation for my eyes. Now, no more glasses for me. Eye operation was in my to-do list for last 3 years. It took 3years for me to fulfill it. It was postponed several times till decemember.
• Decemember was the most depressing month for me. I was disturbed a lot. I never expected that i will become so weak emotionally. I will not write anything about it. I hope this new year 2009 brings a smile on my face.

Happy New year to everyone

Welcome 2009 !!!